Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

<journal, rant (I'll do best to censor myself>

Hitting a MAJOR roadblock in progress.

Progress as of this far has been great in bringing closure to our past MR problems, no doubt. At the same time, we know our spark has never left and still have very deep feelings for one another.

However, OM not being gone in all shapes and forms is really eating away at my sanity.

First off, I sympathise to an extent that XW can not drive and all her other friends she works with are now on different shifts for the holidays. Thus, OM is the "only" ride she can get to work. She swears up and down that nothing transpires, and that they don't even speak in the car. That's issue one.

Issue two, their entire relation to one another and his family as previously described. I wish that she have NC with the entire family as OM's sister was our maid of honor and allowed them to procreate their A. Now, yesterday, I'm balancing my checkbook, and as always reviewing my checks paid, and I blew a gasket last night when I found out that the last child support check I gave XW was cashed by OM's MOTHER! Bullsh!t!!!!

Then, the new developement as of this morning: I'm running late for work, so since I don't respond to XW's texts right away, she just keeps sending me random tid-bit messages. Yesterday afternoon, XW said that she wanted to get together last night. I figurd, sure, a couple of drinks after the kids are situated for the night won't hurt nothing.

Well, after a ackward time on my end where a previous dating interest whom is friends with my cousin was at 'my' house and didn't really want to leave, of which I confessed to XW as she could tell in my voice something was up, that yes, I had interest in this woman, even was invited out as recently as Saturday and have declined. Anyway, it was getting a bit late in the night, and XW said she wanted to watch wrestling and just relax. OK, fine no biggie, we'll reschedule.

So, XW randomly texts this morning that she had this "awesome dream, you took me to wrestling and we were partying naked with shawn michaels afterward".

[screaching car tires]

This is my new problem. I had completely forgotten about all the comments XW made about how her R with OM was "open" (to mean she could try to be friends with me for the hopes of more, all while still with OM, that I of course said F NO to). And I had heard things around town that just made me want to vommit on the spot and could simply not believe would be true.

Didn't even think of the above and replied, 'I'll definately take to wrestling but the partying naked bit, umm, yea'. She responds "well I guess we need a threesome with shawn then ahh?". I said, ' I don't think so' as the above rememberance hits me. Then she fires back, "damn it, well I tried" then a minute later, "fine, just jon bon jovi then".

Having enough my last response was 'seriously, not funny'. She's since responded "you know I only want you", then "are you mad at me?"

I really don't know how to respond. I completely shut that out, so much that I seriously forgot all about it!

ehh, smoke break to think.