Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Thanks girls! It is so special to just BE with him, it makes it all worthwhile.

Its not perfect though, he still has depression. We had our work Christmas parties this week, it was such fun.

So we had a great night out and I was feeling very happy but then we get home and he said, I feel sad... I said, what now?? He said, no all of the time. I said, what about honey?? - He said everything - Everything ?? Yes, I feel sad and unhappy all of the time about everything...I couldnt help ask, what, even our relationship?? He said no, of course not, thats separate, I'm happy about that, but its hard to explain..So I asked him to and he said its like my sadness and unhappiness is in the background all the time, like a backdrop to everything, I am always aware its there, its like having tooth ache for years that never goes away, you know its there in the background but sometimes you are more aware of it than other times.

I felt pretty crushed to here this, its hard to hear.. not only to hear him describe how it is for him, which makes me sad, but also that when I am so happy and enjoying life he feels that way.

Alchohol doesnt help, but he knows that and avoids it more than ever. He is still taking his tablets and exercising, so he is trying. Interestingly, his oldest BMF is badly depressed too right now and in danger of walking out on his W and child and bf is being VERY VERY supportive of him.