I can take it no more soldiers wife need help

[armywifevampi]

i mean bluerain knows i had ticket to go see him in jan. .. thats what i mean if he said well we have to talk about it in person ... like saing are u coming still... i dont want to be a pease cuz he hasent gotten any... and then go back to the same thing...

if he reject me... after when i come back home... i dont know i do want to but .... i dont know how it would turn up...

he so call said last time he got his vc and i know since he put in for it he would not be spending it alone or parting cuz hill waist the money again ... so if he ask that i would not know at the moment should i say that and be honest ...

on how i feel cuz when i tell him how im feeling remember he tells me ooooo here we go again... if i here that should i just say ok bye and hang it...