well the sgt. is a family man and he told me when i called him that he would have a word with him ... but he told me he would call me back and tell me what happend ... he might have called over there and spoke to someone else ..

but he is a good friend and we have become close me and him more then he and my H ... but i have a bad habbet of tring to figures thing out cuz im the one that does everything for him ...

and for the family while and while hes not around i sometimes would like things to get figerd out by him once in a while so i might just let him figuer this one out ....

if he even tries to ... i know everything is a puzzle in life just like a circle but i am tired of giving and not expecting nothing in return ... never have


but there is a time u give up becouse the other is just not tring to and i sometimes say he dose that to see if i give up...

he told me right befor all this that how would i hold up if he goes to afgan. or irac. i told him the same way i did when he went to bootcamp i only spock with him when he was able to .

on sundays only well this tim would be when he can ...

cuz my feelings where getting hurt cuz he stop saying i love u and i miss u ... and he told me that i said it to much and that he does not need to hear that all the time is that true..

and i know i guess if u talk to that person everyday i guess u have nothing to talk about ... or say ... so i did do that but he was getting worst... then he started with the i love my freedoom ... crap.. so then what i did what he wanted gave him space...

and then this no i dont think i should alowe him to change that when its always been that way with use ... or am i wrong for that ....


Me: 35 yrs
H: 35 yrs
D: 18 yrs
Married: 21 yrs
H is over seas : July. 2009, "not happy now..confused" "don't know what I want" "I love you, but not in love with you"
Currently: confused and lonely