Yeah....I know how that can be...the numb feeling. I think I half walk around all day with it. Its partly why I really love my long hours at work. I'm too busy to notice the "numb".
Anyways, I think it was a good decision on your part when you didn't answer the phone...I think you will know when you really ready and why stain something with the remnants of something else. I hope church was good and you found your support.
Take slow steps in the new things you do....emotions are running high...and most importantly do things for YOURSELF. Be good to yourself. Happy Christmas shopping...I still have to get started....:) Have a wonderful week.
