For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

Bluerain,
I'm doing okay. I'm not going to do anything for at least 24-48 hours. I've learned from past mistakes to not act on my emotions. H and I have had no contact today - which is good bc that decreased the likelihood of me reacting poorly.

Really what I'm more upset about is that I let this get to me tonight - meaning that I found myself short on patience with DD. After she dropped a camera on my toe (ouch), dumped a big bowl of water all over the floor and would not stay out of my work stuff - I found myself getting grumpy. Ugh. I do my best to not let any of this affect her, but sometimes I have some bad moments - and they are usually due to something H has done or said. Although, that's an excuse and I need to do better. It just gets hard doing everything on my own.

And it's a catch 22 - I want/need to detach and I've been doing awesome. Yet, I want answers. I feel like "answers" are going to give me the ultimate push to enforce some strict boundaries with H.

Anyway, I absolutley have things to be thankful for so I'm going to think about them. For today...
1. I found a couple of accessories for DD for Christmas at 70% off. woo hoo! She's going to have such a FUN little playset and I got such great deals.
2. For my job - I spend a lot of time working with middle school and high school kids and I love it.
3. That even though I felt I was run over by a bulldozer tonight, I did not do something stupid. I just got on here and
journaled.