Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

tonight i had thoughts of x.. but they were NOT warm and fuzzy. my heart rate actually went up.. they were thoughts of "I WANT to be over this.." and the only way to be over this is for you to not be here anymore... i wish he would leave!! all he does is play dad.. and he doesn't even do that any good anymore.

d13 asked him yesterday if she could stay longer (it was his weekeend)... she text me and i was ..you bet... she thought she was going to .. then 15 minutes later i get a text saying "on our way..." i asked him why he didn't have her stay longer.. he says "she needed to be home.. adn i have errands.."

what a buttnut!!! how many 13 year old girls want to just hang with their dad!!??

anyway - trying to work on this forgiving thing.. it is only hurting me. i dont want to be bitter .. he "did" hurt me but he isnt anymore... enough already