Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Actually, P17, I've been a member since my first month out of the house. W kind of goaded me into it. I just did an advanced search and she didn't pop up. So perhaps she hasn't finished her profile or was just fishing around.

But you know what, I've got to stop all of this crap. I have the answer I've been searching for. There's no OM. BUT she still isn't turning back to me.

I'm out of room on my profile to start a new count, but here's what I'm going to try. It's Dec. 14 and this is the last day I'm going to search her computer and go through the mail.

I love her more than ever, but I love what we used to have and the thought of what we could have if we work at it.

My life today only includes her a little bit and I need to get on with things.