Thanks Deep, That is very helpful. I am a Christian, and was actually just spending some time in prayer before coming on here to look for some peace and guidance to move forward. I was reminded of the betrayal Jesus experienced and his ability to love and forgive. So, this was a confirmation of that. I also felt stronger to release my hurt and betrayal to him and leave it there (for now...always seem to take it back again, but I guess that is being human, isn't it?) Then , you gotta release it again.
The other day, my H was standing in the kitchen deep in thought. I asked him about it. He looked at me with such regret in his eyes and said, "I never wanted this to be your life story, my life story, the kids' life story... but now it is. I am so sorry."
I hugged him and said, "It is only part of our life story. It doesn't define it all. There is plenty of story left to write."
That is the perspective I am trying to remember right now. Not always easy, but it seems to help.
H is admitting struggling with letting go emotionally of OW. I can understand that, intellectually, but damn that hurts! If anyone has any pointers on dealing with that, it would be much appreciated.
