Can I save my marriage?

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Thanks Hope, I am okay right now. Like I said I think I can continue this till after christmas. I have to, for the sake of myself and my children.

Its just so hard. I have only been separated for just over 2 months and I prayed every minute of every day that H would come home. Now that he has, nothing has changed. He is still acting as if we're separated. Its hard to have him home and want to do family things and treat me like a wife somedays, and then do the complete opposite the next day.

I'm going to continue with the what I'm doing, but I struggle. I just want to be loved. And if its not with H, then he needs to leave so I can find that person.

He doesn't like to take blame for anything. So you are right when you say he does it to infuriate me and point the finger at me. That's his whole tactic. Some people have mentioned asking him to leave if he doesn't change his ways. But personally I'd rather wait till he leaves. If I ask him to leave then again, its my fault. I don't want to be pushed into that circumstance.

If he is really only home to be my room mate then yes i will talk to him about it, but I don't think I will actually ask him to leave. I dunno. What's right and what's wrong right now.

I am exctatic my H is home, but extremely saddened by it at the same time.