A Choice

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Hey S2

I thought is might have been a good sign. My W is addictted to prescribtion meds. One of the prob that led to separation. Constantly arguing over meds missing and W lying about them.
But she does not even look like herself when she takes to many.

She has not been hanging out much at OM's house. She has been staying @ GF's house. She has told a friend that she has been thinking about MC and the slight possibility of coming home, but said she is not there yet, and doesn't know if she wants that. She asked another friend how I was, stating she worries about me because of the up coming holidays.

I hope she does draw closer.... but when she gets mad, she really can hold a grudge.

I do not understand what you mean by "false in-love chemicals" please explain...

You said "A probably will carsh and burn", can you enlighten me on why it could possible do so.

And understood that what I say could poss. come back on me. I have never talked bad about my W to anyone. I have mentioned the A to my pastor, a C, and my own personal close family. Some of my friends know because they are on her facebook or have seen W & OM together. They call and I tell them simply, I do not want to and or feel like talking about it. I also asked that they do not speak of it as well as I am trying to get our relationship on track. I love my W more than the air I breathe. Always have.

You may find it weird, but the A does not bother me as much as the fact that she is not here. That being said, I am sad that the A happened/ still happening, but thats the easy part for me. I am very forgiving. Just getting her back is the prob.... if that makes any sense.