Can I save my marriage?

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Okay, so how long do I "act as if"? One day it seems to be working, then the next day not. How long do I go on like this? I want to get throught the holidays. My family is going away this year. We always alternate christmas's. His family one year, mine the next because they live apart. Well this year is H's family christmas. So far I'm included, not only by his family but my H as well.

I really don't want to be left alone on Christmas, so I know I can continue for another week or two. But its hard to have a live in roomate who I love more than the world, and who I just want to hold every second I see him. And him apparently only be home for somewhere to live, not for me. Actions speak louder than words, and his actions have proven that.