june, I sort of agree with you. I am sure Ali does too. In a way.
Not all Ms should be saved. I agree. Tell me something, just for the fun of it, how can you tell which one should?
H has been very discreet, never abusive, good with our kids, good with money (he gave me 3000 last year when I asked for a loan)(very good towards the kids with money-I am sure if my pride was not in the way he would give me more), is generaly polite, cares about my health, my well being, is nice to friends and family, never bad mouthed me to anyone, apologised to my parents and friends, got me in public as of week no#1 as his wife, there is not another woman-(could be he still has limited contact with her) he is not into any addictions such as gambling, drugs etc etc...
He is not leading by no means this reconciliation. And as I have said before, he was never the leader in our R. So, that it is not strange. Only THAT is what I need be different now. Can you see what I am saying?
Maybe this is an MLC case. And from what I read there are phases that are very hard towards the reconciliation, BEFORE the person recomits. I am not trying to excuse him. I am just trying to prove I am not insane sticking to this as long as I have. There are things that because are not points of aggrivation, I am not mentioning here. The point is, how long can I stand being into this situation? I was thinking today driving home, I dont think there are a lot of men that AFTER meeting me (meaning the inner part not the outside) wouldnt be interested in me. So, why the hell cant I win him back? Drive him crazy? Make him want me?
You know why? I've lost my detachement and myself. Again. Just thoughts. I am not telling right from wrong here. Just saying...
