New to the Divorce Situation

[DDogs]

I put in a call to the MC this am and got his Ans service. I am going to tell him that I have reconsidered my decision and that I do not want to try mediation with the W at this point in time. Also, That I feel that I would like some time for my meds(Anti D and Hormone) to start taking effect (W also admits to just begining a new course of hormone replacement therapy, as well)

I honestly don't believe that I am in a proper frame of mind to be making such important long term effect decisions (I would make the same case for W, also).

I am making myself DIM, keeping a positive attitude and trying very hard to act "As if". My mantra lately is "No matter what happens, I will be fine."

I actually think I pissed off the W (based on her verbal responses and body language) by being so nice and positive this past weekend, when I watched the kids while she was at her Xmas party. I think my radar picked up that she seemed agitated that I was pleasant and in a good mood. I only answered basic questions, did not initiate conversation, told her I was glad she had fun, and took my D's out for lunch...

Opinions?