No use having an argument over this. Really. I am listening to everyone and then at night, I am on my own, thinking.
The last couple of months, although what he did wasnt what I wished for, I came closer to him. The last couple of days we are not talking, I miss him. Seeing parts of him again that I loved, was nice.
june, he cheated and cheated and lied. The 2 go together. FG and Kerry and John asked me in the past, is that a dealbreaker? I said no. The year he ACTUALLY cheated on me, 2006-2007 Sep is the worst to accept. Last year, thru her emails, I realised he was cutting the addiction off. He had a lot of trouble doing it, but you could see her desperation. Still, very hurtful and unacceptable. I am not overlooking that either. I wish he had done that (fought the addiction) and not tried to be with me. On the other hand, if he hadnt moved then, I would have been gone. Forever. Completely. No way back.
I made a choice last year. It was MY choice. Even the months I let pass, were MY choice. Not his, not anybody's here.
I am weighing my feelings to make a choice again. I want it to be final. I want it to be it. I am tired of the yo yo as Kerry says. I will file, or tell him to move back. I dont see any other option. K
