We have followed similar paths. I too have come to a point where I am having a hard time ever seeing our M work out and/or having a happy future together.
I have talked to others that have been to this point and have made it to successful, happy M once again though.
Accept. Don't have expectations. But don't forget...anything's possible.
EB,
That's pretty much where I am. No expectations. If I have any expectation, it's that we will be D'd. But, I remain open to the alternative possibility, but that decision is not mine to make.