I decided to go ahead and join them on Tuesday. After thinking about it some, it does give me an opportunity to try and show them I am different than used to be. I can be positive and confident in front of all of them Tuesday night. It will be a little uncomfortable at first, but I can do it.
Last night W and I did sort out Christmas decorations and I got the tree. Apparently D12 has a Karate thing for her belt Wednesday night so I will get them Thursday night and we will decorate the tree then.
While we were going through stuff last night, W thought she had found our wedding candle that we lit every year on our anniversary. She said I could have it if I wanted it. That hurt a bit thinking wow, our M really didn't mean anything to her at all. 12 years of nothing in her mind.
Anyways, we came to the stockings. She asked how many I wanted. I said well, you haven't told me if you are coming over yet on Christmas morning. If you are not, I will take 3, if you are, I will take 4. She said that she will come over Christmas morning. So I took the 4. Christmas afternoon we will spend at her parents house with the rest of her family. Then she said she plans on taking the girls to a movie Christmas night. No invite to join. Ok, cool.
So at one point she finds a meat temperature checker she had gotten and asks me if I want that to be my Christmas present. Huh? I said no thanks. I didn't even know that we were getting each other anything for Christmas. Am I now so supposed to plan on getting her something? And if so, what? I got her something for her birthday that she had wanted and she went out of town on my birthday and got me nothing. So I wasn't planning on getting her anything for Christmas. Should I or should I not with her latest comment?
She felt the need to tell me that her and the girls and her family all went and had pictures made together yesterday. I didn't say anything to that. She then proceeded to tell me it was no big deal. Ok, why bother telling me then? Again, I didn't respond to it.
After we were done with that, I took D7 out to for pizza since she hadn't eaten and didn't want what W had. Me and D7 had a good dinner together and then I brought her back to her mom's.
It was onward home with the tree and decorations after that.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
