It is a hard day for me, the weekend was very difficult for my family. My grandmother on my father's side died last night. Myself and D13 were able to make it to see her on Saturday before she passed. However, 16 hours of driving in 2 days unfortunately gave me nothing to do but think about my sitch and not do things to focus on me, in addition my W and I have had contact more and more. The communication with my W has been good but it is making me yearn for her again. I am focusing more on her in the conversations but I need to be more upbeat which has been hard over this weekend and the knots in the stomach are back. I know it will pass during work today.
Need advice here.... I spoke to her breifly on the phone last night after S9 spoke w/ her before bedtime (normal) I knew my W wanted to see my S9 on Tuesday night for dinner. We needed to talk about the pick up and drop off. I told her that I could drop him off at her workplace to give them more time together but that she would need to bring him home and drop him off, but I would not be there because I had "plans", D13 will get him to bed (school night). While I do not have "plans" with another person (date), I have plenty of things to do and could always catch a movie to stay out later (not that she would know). I plan to be dressed for a "date" when I drop of S9. I don't want to lie, but how should I respond to possible questions about what I will be doing or who I will be with?
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
