Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Thanks DBD! Today I admit I wasn't the happiest. Just neutral with a few jokes thrown in here or there. In fact when WH came over, I was still in my pajamas, hair undone, yesterday's make-up. I didn't look terrible though.

Not much to report...nice again. He helped me pick out a different car seat for my car...I think originally he was going to buy it for me but I just took over on the purchasing part. I mean it's his money anyway; he is supporting me while I'm at home this year.

He said my cookies were good. He thanked me for mailing out the Christmas cards to his family.
He told me I was so good with our son. I told him he was, too.
I made a comment that I was having a lazy Sunday (although I got a lot of chores done)and he said everyone needs a lazy Sunday now and then!

When we were measuring S's length (I thought he had grown significantly because his pants are shorter), I straightened S's leg while WH measured. WH put his hand almost completely over mine as he measured-twice. I mention it because there really wasn't a need for both of us to hold his leg!

But although my DBing efforts could be resulting in a "nicer" WH, where are the actions from him that I need? Sure, I am getting thinner, becoming a better cook, housekeeper, more knowledgeable about relationships, meeting new people. But I would be doing this without DBing on top. The point of DBing is to bust the divorce in order to get a chance at reconciliation. So where's my recomciliation??? Okay, so I have been trying this for 4-6 weeks I think.Lost track. I guess I remember reading we need patience and perserverence (and I am praying also...am not a church goer but have always believed in God). I have one DB coaching session left so I want to save it for after Christmas.

I guess I am succeeding in not giving up and in stalling the divorce.

Before he left, I had done my hair and make up and got dressed again in a different set of pajamas! (I did chores and worked out prior.) I'm sure he noticed!