Maple, hang in there. I know it's tough but I also know that you can handle it.
Make the time to call lawyers tomorrow morning. It is imperative that you get someone lined up. Don't agree to anything without running it by a L first. Then go to your specialist appt. Remember, you have to take care of yourself first otherwise you won't be any good for your kids.
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g