So, he's been communicating with me more than normal since Friday. On Friday, it started with some emails and then he was texting me - like I posted above, pretty much asked if DD and I wanted to hang at his boss's house and get in the hot tub.
On Saturday, there were texts about DD and church on Sunday. Also on Saturday night, I called him bc I was driving and the check engine light came on. Later that night, he texted me and said the car was giving him issues.
And today...I was disappointed that H decided to meet us at church instead of us all riding together, but I am so thankful that he went. We held DD's hands as we walked her down to her classroom, then together we took pictures and videotaped her singing and we sat next to each other during the service. So much of what our pastor said, was so fitting for our situation. I pray that God was speaking to H. I pray that he was listening. I pray his heart was touched. And I thank God that H was there.
After church, H picked up lunch and came back home. He ended up taking DD to his parent's house bc she really wanted to go. While she was there, he texted a bit and after he dropped her off at home tonight, we texted a bit more.
There was no R talk or anything like that, but I do know that I have to pull away again starting tomorrow. This weekend I was very available to him - responding to his texts and that sort of thing, but I didn't pursue, have a negative attitude or anything bad. We were just a little closer this weekend, which I'm thankful for.
I fully understand that I have to let go again and not be so available. He might have been testing the waters to get a gauge on how I'm feeling these days and how I'm acting - and that's okay. I hope he got a sense that I'm committed to our marriage and our family, yet I'm working on myself and my happiness.
I have to stay strong and not act like I'm all into him just bc he gave me a little attention.
...Thank you God for this weekend. Love, Courtney : )
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
