trying hard to figure things out

[twistfigure]

well I was online the other day feeling pretty down and saw one of my brother's friends was online as well so I imed him and we hit it off. He's a 22 year old kid and we've been sending sexy texts back and forth for a few days. Not that it will go anywhere but it has boosted my confidence so much. I haven't felt this sexy and confident in years. My husband would never send sexy texts to me or do anything to add spice to our sex life. I was in the mood all the time and he never was so I always thought something was wrong with me. It makes me giddy every time my phone goes off. I don't want to jump into anything obviously but it is nice to have someone to help me "forget" for just a little while. I am scared of falling for someone immediately as a replacement for my husband and I'm scared of getting hurt....but for now I'm having fun. I haven't felt sexy in years and I have missed it.