A Choice

[P17]

Thanks for the reply. I will stay dark. I have not seen her or spoken to her in 7 days. Everyday is getting easier. I believe I am ready to go all the way with DBing.

It does get easier. But if my own sitch is anything to go by, it will get harder before it get's easier. Be prepared for a rollercoaster of emotions and the DESPERATE need to contact her once you realise she hasn't contacted you. You will get it my friend. Just recognise it. Deal with it. But DO NOT contact her. This is very VERY important. Vent here. Scream here. Shout here. Whatever you need to do.

I stay busy but have not really eaten well last several days. I will get a drip on this one. I think it is because of the quick weight loss or stomach shrinking maybe.

Hey, join the club. It's a chemical withdrawal from the relationship. That withdrawal has a tendency to suppress the appetite. I have lost almost 3 stone.

But I look better today then I have in the past 10 years...

Me too. I now get into a suit that was made for me about 7 years ago. A suit that I haven't had on for about 5 of those as it was too small. It's now just a tad big

maybe deep down I do not want it to change.

Let that go until you are further down the road and understand your feelings better.

I have started running, and light workouts. i will prob start going to the gym. For now, just reading alot.

You're GALing. You're reading. Keep doing both. They will do you the world of good.