Hi ArmyWife. You cant unring a bell, so dont beat yourself up anymore over the text messages. No, you shouldnt have done it, but we are all human beings, and we all screw up. We have all had backslides at least once. Have you done any research into a mid life crisis? He is a little young, but considering the fact that you guys started so early, it might help you to makes some sense of whats going on.

Now you can watch for things that make you do these kinds of things and avoid them. If you are really having trouble controlling yourself, take your phone apart, turn it off, take the battery out and lock it in the car. Figure out how to control yourself. lol. Its YOUR brain, and you are in charge of it!

Is your H having an affair? Im sorry, I didnt catch this before.

Do you live on post? Have you thought about starting up maybe a from-home business? There are lots of them, Avon, Pampered Chef, there are even some naughty ones that I always thought might be fun. Its a good way to meet people, and you could have parties at your house that would be lots of fun!

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...