Counseling conundrums

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Last night he IM’d me. During the conversation I let him know that I know he modified his profile. He tells me I should set one up for myself- “No need to deny my sexuality”. Oh- and is my webcam on? Is BOB getting a workout? Where I am storing BOB? How’s the battery situation? He moans about never having gone this long without sex since we started dating 21 years ago. (Sorry H- no webcam show, you’re on your own…)

A man talks to you like this ^ .....

And today- he and I are decorating the Christmas tree. Halfway through, he pulls me onto his lap, strokes my back, neck and hair like he knows I love, kisses me, and this goes on way too long. We stop as we don’t want to risk D17 walking in- the poor kid is confused enough as it is. I know I should have pulled away as soon as he started, but it was so nice. But I won’t be just a booty call to him, he’s got to be ready to fully commit and look at his role in our M, and I can’t see how he’s ready to do that after being separated for only 2 weeks. I need to keep some distance from him- I’m a little nervous to be alone with him, not out of fear, but because that boundary got weakened and we both know it.

And then you let him do this ^ ???

Easy answer- go dark, I know.

Not "go dark", my sister. LIGHTS OUT.

I wish I knew if he was missing ME, and not just a sexual partner. I don’t trust what I see and hear from him. And I wish I knew why he was being so nice- is it guilt? Trying to soften me up for sex and keep me from asking for support? I don’t know. I’m still trying to figure all this out.

Bunny ~ You deserve a man who will speak to you like a gentleman does - not talk trash after advertising himself for sex online. And then you let him touch you? You are so much more than that - if only you thought so. Instead you're wondering if a guy LIKE THAT misses you.

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