I have been thinking, alot lately actually, about just leaving. After Christmas, just packing up and walking away. Maybe send H an text, maybe not. Somewhere in it I would say "Oh, your upset that I walked away from real estate? At least I didnt walk away from *You*. He would have to drop everything, and come back here from Va, and deal with his slipshod construction (in the middle of winter), and get the house put up for sale. The heat that he never got fixed, and I cant afford to, would fail, and the pipes would freeze... what a mess.
I am just thinking more and more, that maybe its a bad idea to try to keep it. Im confident that I could rent it out, but Im worried that it will be more trouble than its worth. And I kind of like the idea of just sort of washing my hands of the whole mess. And its becoming pretty clear to me that Im not going to be able to earn enough to stay here myself.
I think that if I went about things this way, my grounds for any kind of support would be even more shakey. (I have been told over and over that Ak doesnt do alimony) I dont know, it seems like kind of a silly way to go, I could stand to earn a lot of money from this place one day... but I just dont know. I guess Im just thinking outloud.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
