It's normal to wonder what she's up to. It will take some time to get passed this stage. You have to find a way to keep your thoughts in the here and now and on you and your children, not on her. If it will help, think of her on a very long trip around the world w/no phone or email contact. Whenever you start to think about her, find something to do or better yet, put a rubberband on your wrist and snap it.
Please do not go out there and file for divorce unless it is absolutely what you want. Trust me, the divorce is nothing more than a piece of paper and things will not change until you determine that it's really over and have moved on. Filing for divorce has to be for you and not to try to "snap" her out of it and have her come home. It won't work that way.
The path you are on isn't an easy one, but we all try to make it a better one. If you stumble and fall, someone will be here to pick you up.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
