Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

P17 Who wants a second chance? We are a first choice of sharing and growing. No chance in that my friend. Happiness , sadness, fear and pain. We freely share those out. We freely offer sharing experiences and growing and learning and adapthing.

Cutter, you have a way with words that causes me to read your posts two to three times before I get them. I'm not sure if that's intentional or not but what you say makes sense.

The word 'chance' was maybe misplaced. I just keep remembering the old Frank Sinatra line of 'love is sweeter the second time around'.

She would be lucky to even releaize that a " second chance " existed.

Unfortunately I told her, sort of, in the NC letter I take your point though.

For we control choice. Our choice. Darkness gives one the ability to learn this lesson that we have forgotten.

That is DEAD ON THE BUTTON.

It has made me realise that I am not a victim in this. I am not at the mercy of my W. I am not at the mercy of anybody. I am me. I control who I am. I control what I do. I control with whom I do it. Damn anybody who says otherwise.

In times of stress our we all react differently. But it is afterwards. How we adapt. How we learn. How we change that truely defines our character.

On the button again. As somebody who works for himself I always say that it's not what we do wrong that matters (as we ALL do stupid things at some point) but how we deal with it that matters.

You Sir are a strong person. Soon you will see this. Any time you have doubt look into your daughters eyes and give her a hug.

I know I am a strong person. I am almost back to the person that I was when W met me - strong, determined, loving and focused. Oh and fun.