here we go again

[Jstar]

i'm not going to text him. i just vented for a few mintues in word. just realizing how anger i still am and i don't know if i will not ever be angry.

thing is the other children have told her no and my h will always say yes. i don't think he is smart enough to not believe what his mother is saying to him.

i just think about all the problems we have and i don't see an out for them. the mil, his friends, trust, resentment.

when i was talking to my nieces boyfriend, i said i really do not know what to do and it is still true. i have no clue how i am going to proceed in this situation. i'm not going to pressure myself or let h pressure me into something.

i have one week left of work then on vacation for 2, it will be the new year, like that matters, but in january even more so i will be even more focused on this little boy that will be arriving.