Yesterday was tough. I could think of many other places where I wanted to be instead.
H finally came home this evening after being gone since noon yesterday. The only thing he had with him was his laptop. I had plans for the evening, so I got dressed up and went out soon after. When I left, he was sitting on the sofa in the livingroom watching TV. He doesn't hardly do that anymore. He was very quiet, almost like something was weighing on his mind. I went to church and did some Christmas shopping afterward. I was gone for about three hours. When I got back, he was gone. Oh well. It doesn't hurt anymore like it used to. It's now just a numb feeling.
Tomorrow I go to church where there is a very nice man who wants to get to know me. He called me on my way home from the hearing yesterday, but I didn't pick up. I will know when the time is right.
