What is different is that I now have the explicit answer I did not have 6 months ago.
Reading between the lines - I understand that you've had the conversation with your wife, she has said "put it away ... it ain't going to happen ... EVER." (I expect your wife is far more articulate though! – I’m Australian, I’ve got an excuse for terrible grammar) and you've accepted that you are no longer waiting for sex within your marriage?
I further assume (I do know what happens when I assume) you are now deciding what you want to do about that ... and you're leaning towards staying married and accepting a celibate life on the basis that you now have some evidence that you are not worth fighting for (sexually)?
I sometimes wish I could be as cerebral as you seem to be in your writing – and cognitively I understand it’s a powerful thing to disassociate “me” from the circumstances that affect “me” …. But are you really that good at disassociation?
I’m glad that you “get” it. I’m pleased that you can equate what you rationally know to be the case with what is …. But you are a human too, with human wants and needs – and one of those in most healthy people is intimacy.
Just because you can rationally understand how you got to this point in your life … does that make it OK?
Kind thoughts to you, V
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
