Get the focus off her, detach - let go of the outcome, be a leader right now. Ever seen a combat leader do well reacting and becoming emotional? You will see your boys. Pray for it. Have faith.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.