Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Coach, I'm trying. I really am.

I try to get those thoughts out of my head, but they always come back... My W is dark towards me. I am concerned about that.
This is so hard, and I am struggling just to get through this sentance. I don't want to get emotional, I want to stay focused, but I keep going back to them being together. It makes me sick, and nauseous. I am so disappointed in my W. She's almost 40, and she is traipsing around the Soldiers Barracks like a teenage sl$t. I just want to see my boys. I just want to talk with them.