Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I am in Germany. We have 1 hour layover.
I have been an absolute wreck for the last 48 hours. So much unknown. NO e-mails from my W. I am going to take cab from airport when I get in. I am desperate to see my boys, but I have this overwhelming fear that she is going to do as much damage to that effort as possible. I cannot sleep, as again, all I see is my W with OM-doing things.