Checking up on your post today as both our H's left this week and no doubt we are feeling similarly crappy at times and other times feel good about not having to walk on eggshells. I even have a cat and it definitely is no substitute. I have not slept much at all in the last oouple of days. My H left Wednesday and because of blizzard weather I ended up taking H to airport...not ideal, but it is what it is...had no good one-liners, except to wish him well. I did not shed a tear until last night as he left so much undone and I am overwhelmed with all that I have to do. H emailed me when he arrived very cheery non-chalant that he so much appreciated the ride to airport it meant so much to him and that we would get through this and he loved me mucho. I did not respond what does one say? Two very short e-mails from him today how hurt he was I had not contacted him and to tell me he would be going to the bank early next week and wiring his half of money from money market...I will have to e-mail back a response to this but have been told to keep it business like- will be hard as I thought he already had done the wire transfer and am probably having false hope he changed his mind and had not sent wire transfer and was trying to reach out to me - but I know better so am venting to keep from touching that keyboard and responding to H from the heart.
It is such a delicate balance and I so very much understand how you feel right now - wish I was close enough so we could vent and have a glass or bottle of wine...go take your D's out for a girly dinner or movie.
Cheers, Michele
M 42 h 41 Together 23 yrs M 16 yrs Bomb 5/16/09 D papers filed H left 12/9/09 Forever the grownup...
