W pulled another late nighter after a personal interest course and I again broke DB rules when she got home and asked her what she did after her course. She gave me the standard run around of how it just takes a while to get back from city. I reminded her that she should be aware of my boundary because we had discussed it before and then flat out asked her if she is able to choose between being with her H and being with someone else. She ignored me for a while but then just gave me a very flatly spoken "I'm here". Really don't know what to think of this, it seemed so unemotional and it really shook me up. Had a very rough day today thinking about it. Is it possible that she is trying to break the A and is feeling sad or is she just still heavily emotionally invested in OM. She still doesn't seem to be planning on separating any time soon so I don't know why she would want to stay if she is so checked out.
A few weeks ago, she seemed to be making progress in a good direction. I remember reading in another post somewhere that sometimes, a WAS in an A may be confused as to how to start R and was wondering if she is looking for me to lead us out of this (MC, R discussions, etc.).
I have recently been on an upswing in terms of mood, confidence, etc. but after last night, I feel like I have been beaten back down. When the pain comes back, it sure comes back hard!
