Moving on with my life!

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I think that I am ok with the realization that its all about baby. He is her dad and needs to be a part of her life, but not at my expense. In his ideal world he would be able to manage coming and going here like he pleases, keeping me mentally from moving on, and walk out and go be with whomever he wants and do what he wants. He can do that. I cannot. Divorced people have schedules. We have one and I need to keep it. If he misses his time for whatever reason, then so be it. I would love it if he pulled a Tiger and stood for his family, but he doesn't want to.

Trying like heck to get a sitter for tonight. Not working so far. I want to go do something and some friends are going to this local place and it should be fun. For some reason it makes me feel in control of myself thinking about going out and not sitting here thinking about exh. It really hasn't been an option before mostly because I didn't want to, but now I do and I can't find a sitter!