Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Well, I need to vent a bit, so I can then get back to focus on myself and d8...

Went to get d8 this AM, and as I am waiting to collect her stuff in 'our' old living room, my fabulous STBXW says:

"The disposal in the sink broke this week, and I had to have a plumber come and fix it, and it cost 230 dollar's so you'll need to give me that money."

WHAT!!! Are you friggin kidding me STBXW???!!!!

I remained civil in tone, but I was so effing mad, (Forgive the swearing, I just need to vent..) that I was shaking.

I told her, that is unfortunate, but you are responsible for these maintenance items now.

She attempted to say, no it's in the order that you are to pay. Um, no, that's not in the order, the order says specifically what I am to pay for, and maintenance is not on there, so your responsible for it.

Next up, she then goes back to when we went to court and that week I didn't give her any support money that week, so just pay the bill, and that will make up for it.

AAARRRGGHHHHHH.. I just want to go off on her at this point, but I don't, and just state to her.

Sorry, I will not be paying before we went to court I overpayed you for 3 weeks when I didn't have to give you any money at all, and asked you to pay the bills, and you couldn't even do that.

She then has the gall to tell me she has no money and can't afford these things..

WELCOME TO THE REAL FRIGGIN WORLD YOU Du...... ARRRGGHHHH, I just can't believe the mindset she has...

I then calmly state her, lets look at the facts, I am basically going bankrupt right now, had to take a loan to get myself on my feet, and you have a huge inheritance that you have in the bank..

To which she tells me, well I don't have much left of the inheritance, and need that to survive and can't really spend it.

DOUBLE ARRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!! She is saying this while I am staring at a huge pair of fake boobs she bought, and while standing in 'our' old house that I am paying for her to live in, and in the middle of literally THOUSANDS of dollars worth of new furniture she went out and bought..

At that point, I just said, if you want to talk any more about finances, we will do it when d8 is not around, then went to collecting her, petting my dog that I miss for a few minutes and getting out of there.

The whole time I just wanted to unload on her, and at the same time I gloating to myself a bit thinking this is what you wanted STBXW, I hope your enjoying yourself!!

Both of the feelings/thoughts above are NOT WHERE I WANT OR NEED TO BE RIGHT NOW. I don't want to be angry or gloating or anything else when it comes to STBXW. That's why I am venting here to get this out, so I can refocus on d8 and myself.