Waiting More Than a Dozen Years

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Earl,

Do you ever listen to yourself?

Do you ever look back at the posts you've written here, and ask yourself what it is you truly want?

Yes, and it is not about "wanting," it is about choosing. It is not about "doing," it is about "being."

And I not only have what I've written here, I have a collection of writings that go back over 40 years. It is interesting to see my view into the future and contrast that with what has actually occurred and become my past.

The core of who I "be" is still largely the same one from 40 years ago, though some views have changed with experience.

And what I can say about now compared to 6 months ago when I titled this "waiting" is that I had been waiting for my wife to change her position on sexual intimacy on her own and that "waiting" is no longer the operative word.

What is different is that I now have the explicit answer I did not have 6 months ago.