Your doing well, and I am glad your putting these things down on this site. Talking/venting/analyzing will give you better control of how you feel. I know I am stating the obvious to you, but it's nice to revisit it once in a while to reframe your thoughts and emotions again.
Keep it up. Now is time for you, and I have watched your sitch since you started, and have seen the progress you have made.
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."