he has email, but i don't know it, i don't think he checks it.

so last night he sends a text around 11pm. thank you. this time last year we were driving to church. i see you will always be the same. How are my kids?

i agree i don't think i'm ready to speak to him. realistically what i want to hear is most likely not going to happen, my standards / expectations are to high for him at this point.

obviously he's wondering what i'm doing, doing a little rehashing of past good times we've had. but i don't think enough to break silence. but again i could be totally wrong.

me being completely dark is majorlly out of my character, me never responding is a complete 180 from way i was before.

Me 39 H 30
d 18 previous marriage
d 2.5 with H
s 4.5months with H
Seperation Nov09
july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline