I can take it no more soldiers wife need help

[armywifevampi]

I am listening... to u at all times... I just say what I feel at the moment and thinking at the time... im trying so hard to take him out of my mine.. its been 4day I have not called him or talk to him... and im not going to... but how can u not care to find out how are things at home... there is no one to tell him how we are... or anything that can do that otherwise... I don’t think he wants to come back to me at all... I read everything... uve said and im putting it in my head and its holding me together but when the night falls it just hurts... so I try not to think about it...I want to give him a slap in the face... I really do I think im not cut out to be strong in this feeling part... and I know I need to be not only for my family but for my self... I hope the book u recommended will do me some good... im going to do a project with my daughter for her cooking class... I hope I have my mine straight and can help her with her goal to in life... me is when everyone falls apart I go down to... when everyone is doing good im happy for them even though im not happy I haven’t set my goal in life... I cant even talk to my mother-in-law cuz she would always change the subject on me and its hard not to talk to no one about my feelings... its good too let them out when u have so much built up in side... but ur holding me in there and I thank u ... wearied out off everyone I know ... someone I don’t comes along and helps me with this battle ... not even family can help... cuz they try to ignore people that I guess are not cared for... I thank u from the hart and u bring the life out with ur word... I do listen even though u think im not... remember im a very good leader just not with my life at the moment... I will soon I hope and I pray every night I will find my ways though this no mater the outcome ... ill talk to u soon... have to go to the hospital they recently found something’s I did not want to... but I have to make sure im good for this long journey to life it self... be back latter tonight thanks again for being a friend when one is in need ...