I ended up responding to a text last night too quickly. Today is a new day. But at 9 last night exh asked if we were up and I said yes. 10 minutes later he was knocking at my door. He was on call and on his way to work for awhile but he wanted to say goodnight to baby. He was here 10 minutes and left.
What I have realized the past few days is it truly is about baby. He is showing nothing more towards me other than friendliness...which is fine, but I don't think this interest in the family life includes me. Right now I am just a part of the package due to the circumstances. When he leaves, there is no linger and akwardness that there was before. Now he just kisses baby and walks quickly to the door. Its the weekend though, that may change.
Oh, when he was here last night I got on the computer and was just looking around. I saw that Tiger is giving up golf for awhile to work on his personal life. When I saw it I sorta blurted it out kinda in amazement. Exh just said "Hmph" and turned away. BTW, even though what Tiger did sucks and was horrible, he is now trying to make it right with his family. I admire that. I wish all WS would come to that realization!
Exh is supposed to have a visit this morning. Then I am going to go back to no responding right away and try and put a little distance there. I do like that we are friendly to eachother at least for baby's sake but my mental health is taking a huge nosedive.
After he leaves my son has a wrestling tournament and I will head to that for awhile.
Oh, I did get asked out on a date! Too bad the guy is undateable! He is someone that I dated back when I was 18. Then he sorta went the wrong way and has had some issues in the past with drinking and drugs. He is doing better the past few years, but I don't think I should go there. He lives in Texas and is here for a few days. He got ahold of me thru my son when my son goes back to Texas every summer. It will be nice to see him again, but thats all. Felt good anyway.
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!
