I hear you guys about the MC, but at this point, I am simply done with trying to convince her to work on the M. After 6 months of DB'ing, she says "nothing's changed" about how she feels about our M. I would say that took a lot of wind out of my sails, but it honestly was a reality check.
I am open to working on our M, but it's going to take two of us to make it work. And, unfortunately, I see NO sign my W has any desire or intention to work on our M. So, I do not see any benefit in MC right now. If she truly wants to go to MC, she's going to have to lay aside her pride and come to me about it.
I can honestly now utter the WAS "script." I am not attracted to her. I love her, but I'm not in love with her. I believe I could be attracted to her again and could fall in love with her again, but I cannot do that alone. She has to do the work as well. And she, quite simply, does not want to, for whatever reason. Reason doesn't matter, b/c the result is the same - she does not want to be M'd to me anymore. And while that's not what I want, I DESERVE BETTER.
