First Piecing Thread

[Hope4us]

Thanks guys. S17 and I are 4 days into our challenge and I'm doing better than he is. He hasn't fallen off the wagon, but he's been quite the bi*ch the last couple days which I'm sure is because of him quitting.

Me on the other hand, same as the other times I've quit. Isn't bothering me in the least. Don't get me wrong. I miss it. I'll absent mindedly grab a bottle when I'm done eating as that "after dinner mint" was good, but besides that, not really any problems.

Had a problem with our furnace yesterday and when the furnace dude came over we went down stairs and I saw W's old cell phone laying on the desk. I opened it up and deleted the pictures she had on there from OM days. I also looked at her TM's and there were only a few she left on there, one from EGF. Want to talk about how F'd up a place she was (not sure if I mean W or EGF)? The TM said (to wife), "I look forward to seeing the beautiful plant you become once the weed is pulled".

Doesn't take a brain surgeon to figure out I'm the weed. This TM was a month after I exposed her A to the kids. With EGF saying stuff like that to W, is it any wonder it took her so long to wake up? Wonder what she'd say now if she looked at it?

Don't worry, I'm not going to say anything or show her, but it's a good thing that EGF is pretty much done with the company and there won't be that wonderful influence in W's life.

And it's amazing where we are right now. I've been sick since Tuesday evening. Some asthmatic bronchitis thing. By Wed morning, couldn't really breathe too well. Got a Dr appointment for Wed afternoon. W called home from work and asked how I was doing and when I told her she said "I'm coming home and taking you to the Dr". Dr almost admitted me to the Hospital, but after two breathing treatments, a steroid shot, a steroid prescription, an antibiotic prescription and an emergency inhaler, ole H4U is finally breathing somewhat normal.

You have no idea how this made me feel. She has NEVER said or done anything like that for me before. NEVER. I've had this asthmatic bronchitis one time before and I drove myself to the Dr's office and then to the pharmacy and then home, the whole time feeling like I was going to pass out. And W came home from work and looked at me and said "you ok"? And that was it.

Fast forward to this time, she tells me she's taking me to the DR. Offers to get the prescription filled, has been a doting wife these past 3 days. And damn, it feels good.

We're going to try to get some shopping done today. Not sure how much I'll be able to do as I get really tired after just a little physical exertion.

I went into work yesterday for a couple hours as I had a couple things I HAD to get done and while I was there, one of the guys who works for me and knows the story asked me if I thought it was worth it, going through what we had to get to where we are and I told him that I'm not glad we went through it, but at the same time, when I look back over that last 6-8 years, I can see how we'd drifted apart, got so involved in being parents, working, etc that we lost sight of each other. And I can see that it seems like maybe W was looking for something long before we moved over here and when the POS made his move, it was all over. And if this had to happen for us to wake up, I'll deal with it. Cause now it seems like W has truly figured out where she wants to be, and that's with me/us.

And I've learned to not take W for granted, that the things we say and do, DO MATTER. And I've learned patience I never would have believed I had in me. And I've learned I can love someone that isn't behaving very lovable and forgive them and accept their flaws as a part of them to love.

It's funny, we were watching t.v. last night and the Tiger Woods story came on again. The network threw out a teaser and then went to commercial and W asked me what I thought. I told her Tiger should come out, admit everything, not play golf for as long as his W wants him to not play and throw himself at her feet asking her what she needs from him to heal. I know. I don't think she was expecting quite that response, but when I was done W quietly said "I agree".

Yes, we've come a long way. The last two years have sucked big time, but where we are now, getting better and better every day, I think I'm ok with the path we took to get here.