Is this the end of my marriage?

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The house is ready for Xmas. I've put the pics on my FB page. They were not great as they were taken on my mobile, but they are something just now. Tree looks FANTASTIC even if I do say so myself. Now looking forward to Xmas, although I now also need to go and clean up as the house looks just a little tiny bit messy

Xmas has also given me a bit of a revelation. Out of the mess that W and OM created, I'm actually the one who has come out of this the best. I never thought about that until last night.

She has left, got a new house just a stones throw away, bought and paid for by daddy, had all of her debts paid off by daddy, has a new OM that she can play slap and tickle with and be happy with. She will wake up on Xmas day with her loser OM, who smokes (read previous posts it's a big deal to her), seems to have an attitude problem, has had cold feet so many times I'm surprised he doesn't have frost bite, and she will be constantly reminded of the family she left, guilt, upset and hurt. Oh, and anger. Her parents, last time I spoke, said they were going to come up for Xmas but she didn't think they were as they hadn't all of the previous years. She was a bit disappointed with that. Maybe they will, maybe they won't.

Me, I have my house, my job, my inner strength, no-guilt, upset, some anger (although no where near as much as a few days ago), a warm bed (thank the lord for electric blankets!).

Looks like she is winning there, and that's what I always say. Until last night. All of the stuff she has is superficial. The money, the house, the A with OM. It's all superficial and fake nonsense.

I have my strength, my courage, my hope and I have good friends who support me. Most of all though, I have D. D will wake up on Xmas day and want the presents Santa left for her. I have a house that is beautifully decorated. I have some of my motivation back and most of all I have some peace that Xmas this year will be good.

You can't buy that stuff.

On top of all of that, I have been given a second chance at happiness, with W or with somebody else. I have also been given a lesson in how a R works and how I can be a better boyfriend / partner / husband. These are hard lessons as cutter said, but they are valuable lessons. These are the lessons that W hasn't learned and is unlikely to learn. She will make the same mistakes with OM1 as she did with me, and then when she leaps into a new R with OM2, OM3, OM4 (as she can't stand being on her own) she will make the same with them.

Vent over.