Sometimes it is hard not to say what I am really thinking. I feel like if I don't say something that maybe I am a doormat. It hurts when he talks to me like I never loved him. I hate it. Today he did that. He told me how he went last Saturday morning and layed with OW for an hour to feel the baby move and kick. He has supposedly broke up with her. He says "well I didn't kiss her or have sex with her". He might as well have. He now wants to buy her a Christmas present. (she smoked pot while pregnant with his baby. Isn't buying her a present like saying what she did is okay?)
Why is this so hard? I love him yet I hate his actions. They say you hurt the one you love. But why???
