Coping with Bi-Polar WAW

[CountingCrows]

Thanks Puppy. I felt more calm and assured than I have since she left. Still, I believe nothing that she says and only 50% of what I see...

W called this evening before she got off work and said that her back was really hurting, and it looked like she wasn't going to to get out of work quite as early as she hoped. She said that she wouldn't be able to spend any quality time with S7 tonight, as it would be right before bedtime before she had him at her apt. Asked if it would be o.k. to come over tomorrow morning and take him out before she had to work the banquet tomorrow night. Acted very concerned that I would think this was just a excuse, and said that now that we're talking more, she wanted to be up front about everything, which was why she was calling to ask if it would be a problem. I agreed that this was the way I wanted it to be, for her to be straight with me all the time.

I had already planned for a "Family Movie Night" with S7 this evening, so I agreed that she could pick him up in the morning. S7 and I got a fire going in the fireplace, microwaved some popcorn and ate it and brownies while watching "Shorts" (decent movie) under a fleece blanket together. We cuddled during the "scary" parts and laughed together at some of the funnier moments.

When the movie was over, and I was tucking S7 into bed, he asked if he could call his Mommy. I dialed the number and gave him the phone. He hung up after about 30 seconds and gave me back the phone. She hadn't answered.

A little over 10 minutes later, she calls my phone and says she's sorry she missed my call. I hand the phone to S7 and they talk for a minute, then he gives me the phone. I said Hi and asked how she was feeling...if her back was still hurting. She said she was at Walmart picking up some stuff for tomorrow, so they wouldn't have to go there during their visit, and could concentrate on some of the places he wanted to go. Said her back was still killing her, but that she still had to get things done, since having only one day off a week wasn't enough to take care of things. This is nearly 2 hours after she got off work. We briefly discussed pickup time for the morning and said goodnight.

I really don't know if I believe a word she says. Only her actions over time will show me if she's really feeling the way she acted this morning, or if she was just trying to feel me out to assure herself she still had a "hot standby" in case things go bad. Just going to keep on with what I'm doing, though. Detach, 180...GAL. God only knows how long this roller coaster ride will last.