I don't know what it's from - from all the abuse over the past eight months, over the stress and ackwardness of "DB"ing correctly, fear of his anger, fear of him leaving, or just the pain of separation and detachment? Trying to fake being strong in the face of this pain.
All of that you have just mentioned. Stress can do strange things to us and our mind & body can endure just so much.
I don't know how you feel about taking medication for this, but I think you need to see a doctor who will give you something to help with the attacks. People can have heart attacks if enough of that stuff happens long enough.
I had heard of panic attacks before, but had never experience it until I had my WAW issues. Then.....not too long ago, I had some type of "melt-down" when my physical pain was so bad, but it was the emotions I was feeling that I didn't understand. When I explained it to another person, they said it sounded like a panic attack. It was awful and my heart sure goes out to anyone who has them. I don't know how you would handle very many.
Just wanted you to know somebody cared, sweetheart. Please take care of yourself.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
