Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Thanks Dennis,

I was overthinking/worrying. I just don't want to be one of this women who really doesn't see the writing on the wall.

I'm certainly not standing still just waiting, I'm living and getting on and thinking about the future with or without H..but my heart is still with H-praying for him every night.

I called H about a phone snaf we're having b/c I was told by Comcast that there was a new email account that may be receiving our digital voicemail and it was in H's name and I didn't know the password(or recognize the email acct). I explained it matter-of-factly and H said he was sorry he didn't know about that email account and hoped I didn't think he had a secret email account(I don't)..that was nice of him to be preemptive.

H is alone at his cousin's place this weekend as his cousin is skiing..His big plans are laundry and cleaning he bathroom. I was good and didn't ask him to do anything..Just letting him miss us for now.

He does sound happy to hear from me when he does(I'm not initiating any contact except today's call as I needed info)..but usually the calls/conversations end a bit awkwardly...

I'm definitely doing better this time around. Much more detached. I know I'll be OK no matter what. Just lonely right now-miss the snuggles at night. The cat is a poor substitute!

Feel bad for H.